No matter how I try, this time of the semester catches up to me and I get STRESSED! I am not a person who feels stress much at all. In fact, having these midterms makes me realize how LITTLE stress I let affect me. Oh sure I get irritated at Dawn, the kids and other life hassles but they don’t hang with me. I don’t worry about things I know I can’t change. But the last few days and I know the next few days are terrible!
I think I build in enough time and I never do. I fail to think about all the things that just “happen” and that interrupt a well thought out planned ie a very poorly well thought out plan! Our herb formula midterm is 55 formulas… 55. Things like: Si Jun Zi Tang, Liu Wei Di Haung Wan, Zhi Bai Di Huang Wan, Du Qi, Wan, Ba Xian Chang Shou Wan, Er Long Zuo Ci Wan…. I think you get the idea but don’t forget I have to know all the herbs in each, what they are used for AND the dosages of each individual herb. It is a pure nightmare deluxe!
So last Thursday (4 days ago) I put my plan in action to come home Friday after class (only 1/2 day) and leave Colton at school so I can have a good 2 hours study time but Dawn tells me the dentist called and Eric had an appt at 2pm. Great.. that meant I had just enough time to get back to our city, get him and get to the dentist. I THOUGHT Dawn said it was for a sealant but it was to fix some defect and the lady told me to expect 1 – 1.5 hrs. Great I thought! I brought my herbs book, papers, pen and highlighter in but I wasn’t very successful at focusing. How could I when there were kids all over the place.
Home finally and I get on my computer and Dawn says she wants to go to dinner. Grr. Fine-we go to dinner but by the time I’m back home-I am really having a hard time even focusing so I look at them but not much is absorbed. I look forward to Saturday.
I get up Saturday later than normal. Well I woke up at about 7:30pm but we all layed in bed until about 9:30 when Dawn got up to get ready to go to work for a bit. I ended up snoozing until 10:30am and got up but then looked at the downstairs and it was a mess! I did some dishes, picked up the living room, vacuumed, started some laundry and sat back down to study some more and Ashley text wanting to come over. I knew that would mean it would take up several hours.. hours that I really didn’t have to give but our schedules never seem to match up. I hardly ever see her and I don’t see the grand kids either so I really did want to see them. That meant up to the shower, back down to do more laundry and start some dinner. They came about 4:30 and stayed until about 8:30pm.. again, I went right upstairs but just couldn’t focus much….
Today… I get up early and get right to it. It feels GOOD. Stuff is sinking in and I’m sailing! Dawn books a dinner date with a girl from her work. We argued slightly about this yesterday because she arranged for us to go to a haunted house… a haunted house that from the moment she mentioned it, I told her I did NOT want to go. So she schedules with her co-worker anyway and then tells me we are going Sunday at 5pm. I tell her again I do not want to go and I told you that! Not only do I not want to go… I have a boat load of work. That turned into “why do you ruin everything for me!” Sigh. She ended up calling this girl and instead arranging for dinner. I told her fine but that it couldn’t be a “sit around and chat 2 hrs thing.” I still felt like I’d get some good time in but then she surprised me at 1:45 and said “I need your help with my test.” Me.. Wwwwwhhhhhaaaatttttt???????? The last one I helped her with took us 2 full hours. Ugh. That meant my study time was over. We are supposed to meet for dinner at 5:30pm.. so we started the test, at 2:11pm, it took us almost exactly two hours. I thought I’d get at least 20 minutes to look back on my herbs but I realized I have another test tomorrow! O.M.G.! One that I haven’t even looked at! I spent 20 minutes on that, went up to take a shower and get dressed and I had another 20 minutes so I saw this up and figured I’d write in that time frame before we have to leave. Maybe erase some frustrations.
Two things to point out… My school schedule almost NEVER impacts what Dawn wants to do. At midterms and finals yes but other than that, what she wants is always what we do. It does bug me that she knows I’m stressed and busy yet tried to put it all on me that *I* wasn’t letting her do something etc. Grrrrr.
However.. I should have planned better for this. It isn’t like I didn’t know the exact week these were coming. I think every week just always seems so full and packed. I don’t know how to balance everything. I’m 3 weeks late on getting a file to Dr. S which is not like me and worse.. it isn’t even completed!
Ah well… a few more days and all of this will be passed right? I’ll have survived another midterm and we will continue to roll right along. We always do :-)
And now Dawn is downstairs and we need to bust out of here. At least it will be some good food! BBQ goodness.